I had a mini breakdown last Wednesday night because I WANT MORE & I WANT IT NOW. Who doesn’t right?
I was frustrated with myself for not having more clients, not speaking at more panels and a whole laundry list of other things I chose to cry about – all making myself wrong and inadequate.
While going through my episode, all I wanted was to be alone to cry, not welcoming of the support that was sent to me to figure it out. In discussing the event with one of my coaches afterward – I was able to see that my breakdown was completely self-inflicted. Even when my coach tried to talk me through it, I convinced myself that I didn’t need anyone at the moment. Causing my own feelings of loneliness and limitation.
(Sometimes you want to cry in peace, no matter how lonely it feels.)
After I was done crying, I went to a Sweat Spa at Shape House and sweated at 70 Degrees Celsius for 60 Mins. Before sweating I shared what had just happened with my friend Jenel and then enjoyed the amazing experience of releasing the toxins from my body. Initially, I believed that the effects of the session would be strictly water release, what I received instead was a total transformation. Not only did I release the excess water in my body and the toxins I didn’t know about – I also released the limiting thoughts and ways of being that don’t work. I was also reminded of how amazing it feels to let things go; feelings, thoughts, people & tangible material objects.
The next day – I had over 10 people in my life reach out to check on me. They had no idea what happened the night before, it was like the universe wanted to show me how many people care, when you allow them to! I took it upon myself to share the details about why I had a breakdown and the limits that thinking small had on my life. Due to my sharing – I was able to receive an outpouring of support and empathy that showed me that I am NOT alone.
Nothing is more comforting for a Human Being than feeling there are other people that can understand our breakdowns!
I am no different than you. I’m human with fear, frustration, and an Ego that talks a lot of sh*t.
I’m also bigger than my fear, and more dope than my EGO and so are you!
If you are going through a rough patch in your life, come chat with me. Bring a friend too.
The more we share in a group dynamic, the faster that you and your crew heal, grow and succeed.
Believe In Yourself.
Take Action & Do What You Love.
Trust That Everything Else Will Follow!